day 11

cny day 2..
last time back in tropicana, we always rush home to spend time with you ans princess after our yearly festive obligations..
either that or you and princess will come along with me and go visiting to different houses..
over the years, things have really changed, but i still can't help but feel regret swarming over me..
i wish i never took you for granted, i wish that we were still staying together, i wish you were still here..
i wish for tons of things, but i know these wishes will never come true again..

day 10

it's chinese new year today..
not such a happy or exciting occasion for us cos you're not around..
can't see you wearing yr cny shirt anymore..
sigh..
are you celebrating there or enjoying yourself with all the yummilicious food??
i sure do hope you are..

day 9

the chinese people believed that when a person dies, on the 7th day after their death their soul would come back and visit the family or house in a different form..
i wonder if the same applies for you..
me and daddy talked about it, but i doubt there was anything that happened because daddy didn't mention a word..
me and daddy also joked and said that maybe you will reincarnate and become our real son instead..
if that's the case, daddy will love you to bits.. just like how he did the first time he saw you at the pet shop..
because of you, we all began to love miniature schnauzers..
clumsy and cute..
absolutely captivating..
Love you..

day 8

you are just so adorable and smart that it's so hard to forget you..
grandmama and grandpapa keeps comparing stephy with you..
poor girl, and she was just bunking overnight..
please protect yr daddy k??
he's just so emotional and temperamental..
btw, how you doing there babyboy??
how come you didnt stop by in my dreams..
really miss you..

day 7

daddy tears everytime we talk about you..
he really misses you a lot...
i guess you are really his fav poopy, always and forever..
your girls have a mixture of your character..
ally has your looks and persistancy..
fatty is smart like you with an attitude that desires for attention...
miss you...
muaxxx

day 6

miss you
miss you
miss you
miss you
miss you
miss you
miss you
miss you
miss you..
MISS YOU SO MUCH!

i know no matter how many times i say this, you won't be back..
but i really do miss you so!!

day 5

did i tell you, daddy got drunk that night..
he was really upset and really blames himself for your death..
he said he really don't feel like going home anymore becos it doesn't mean anything to be home and it hurts him even more..
por por cried cos she misses you alot and gong gong went to a pet shop to look for "an uncle" as he terms it..
we all miss you..
por por is traumatized by the whole thing and she can't stand to see mindy around..
do bless mindy

day 4

fourth day..
many more condolences were wished today..
still wished it was still a dream..
i've cried till i have no more tears, or mb cos i held it back so often now my tear ducts are dry like a dessert..
but my heart hurts even more..
especially talking about it while trying to keep a straight face..
i hope my boy is enjoying his freedom and god will protect him from all things that would harm him..

boy, if you could hear me or read this..
your daddy misses you so much his eyes turns red everytime we talk about you..

do protect your daddy if you can and your wifey stephy and your two darling angelss fatty and ally..

i wish we had more of your kids..
but even if we did, the family will never be complete without you..
come and visit me in your dreams k?
i really miss you..
if you see mummys grandpa and grandma, do say hi to them for me and send my love..
maybe you can end up with grandpa and also grandma..
they will protect you and love you, i'm sure about that..

i love you boy..
now always and forever..

day 3

he's gone..
its officially day 3 and reality bites..
i only have crummy old pictures and his old cny shirt..
nothing more..
it hurts..
i just wanna be able to hold him, hug him, kiss him, smell him and play with him, but i can't..
life is just so unfair!!

day 2

i woke up wishing it was a dream, unclepupz was supposed to hang on for less than 2 years and we'd get our own place..
why couldn't he??
then the family of four can be officially together again..
goddamn 4wd, you killed my dog and sped off!!
you should just rot in hell and die with kidney failure, heart attack and aids..

day 1

he is gone..
i can't believe it..
is it true that all dogs die and go to heaven??
if it is, dear lord..
please help me take care of him..